And so it begins, rewind to October 2014

I started to have flank pain in my back, aware of my kidney function not being great I went for bloods. I had been told three years earlier that there was a problem with the function of one of my kidneys, nothing to worry about at this point but needed to be monitored. Also could not find the cause of it. Pain getting much worse couldn’t sleep at night every time I turned over I yelped.Results showed kidney function low. Dr. thinks it’s not connected but postural but still sent me for kidney scan, the scan was clear.

As a personal trainer I know my body very well so I knew it wasn’t postural and my back was strong, however decided to give physiotherapy a go (process of elimination). My amazing physiotherapist is also my personal trainer and knew my bodies ability well ,so on assessing me over a few weeks agreed that something wasn’t right and sent me back to the Doctors to ask for a referral. I went back to several different Doctors’s in the surgery, a tale i’m sure we are all familiar with. I had a great Dr but I think i’d just been with her for to long and maybe it had become a bit familiar, over the years i’d have pockets of time of going regularly with my various ailments, it all makes sense now! Raynaud’s, sinuses, chronic rhinitis,etc. I have to say over the last 4 years iv’e had a sense of something was wrong. I then started to wake up with pain in my arm, knee and sometimes my whole body. I felt my body was hot.

Barely sleeping at all now,feeling a little stir crazy in the mornings as I still need to go to work. As if all that wasn’t enough…

I then get stung by a wasp on my thigh….My immune system loved that!


Life changed…rewind to September 2014

It’s been a stressful year, personally and financially but iv’e come out the other side. I’ve got my head around my children having left home…this is my time, for the first time in my life time for me, how exciting! What do I want to do, what do I want to eat, when do I want to do it?. Don’t get me wrong I miss my children not being home but this could be quite liberating. On reaching my 48th Birthday mid September I was feeling positive about my future in work and in meeting my Mr Right. Feeling fitter and healthier than i’d been since my 20’s, dare I say feeling confident  about myself and enjoying discovering who I am.

By the end of September noticed my training was becoming tougher, I was getting out of breath quickly, I also started to over heat to the point I thought my head would explode but noticed I had stopped sweating which is not typical of me. I also struggled to get my heart rate down after a session also my strength was waining.

Just not feeling quite right….Life changed!

Through my dry eyes,to sad?

A client of mine, who is now a good friend a very motivating and inspiring women suggested to me one day whilst I was putting her through her paces, that maybe I should write a blog, she touched a nerve it was something that had been on my mind for a few months, this was the push I needed.
The title “Through my dry eyes ” came to me very quickly. So I excitedly texted it to her to get what I thought would be a positive response. “It’s to sad!” she said. I pondered for a while and then texted back “Yes it is” But so is Sjörgren’s!
Please don’t misunderstand I don’t intend for this blog to be sad, however we all know it’s a journey, so as I rewind my tale of my journey it may seem that way initially…